Monday, May 30, 2011

Blarin' in pain my nostrils yelled.

Due to lack of sleep in the last 3 days
Due to my dad being wild and literally pulling the tube under a bush causing me to quickly dunk my face in the water. There were three of us on the tube so I have no where else to hide myself. As I ducked my head to save my life, my nose inhaled the whole bayou.
I woke up with the feeling that someone is constantly pinching my nose(in the middle).
Today I had to shoot meds up my nose(Cocaine). Oh, and gargle with salt water. FUN.FUN.FUN
My nose has been running as if a fountain lives inside of it.
Now raw.
Here's the results:

Sunday, May 29, 2011

I am.

There's a city in my soul.
I have very many different levels.
I have very many different departments
I have very many different compartments.
I am Multi.

An onion is too thin for my description. The layers are too flimsy to handle the depth. I am a million different things. I am a combination of these things. I am a city.

Everything that I like is merely the glass windows.
All my passions are just the sidewalks.
My love is only the ocean.
There is more following.
Behind the layers of skin, sits this city.

the inspection team.


And when the realization entered my mind, I hired the inspection team.
Every time I wanted to yell at someone, they would search me.
Every time I wanted to eat out of sadness, they would search me.
Every time I wouldn't finish what I started, they would search me.
Every time I got jealous of every pretty person, they would search me.
Every time little things became big things, they would search me.
Every time my face break out, they would search me.
Every time my jaw would pop, they would search me.

They would look deep inside me.
Fully examine my soul.
Study it through&through.

They would open doors that had big wooden boars in the shape of a 'x' on it so nothing could open it.
They would painfully pull back each board and with all their weight pull until the rusty strong door opened.
They would enter.
They would find hidden basements.
They would find dark secrets.
They would expose&open things that had been closed for many days&trillions of seconds.
And with every painful opening, came honest understanding.

With all my disgust, selfishness, lust, lies, guilt, disappointment, shame, anger, bitterness, failures, embarrassment, insecurities, and ugliness neatly laid out on the kitchen table.
I was naked, completely bare.
The inside of my dark dark soul utterly revealed.
I was a monster.
And they loved me.
The called me their beloved.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

You're going to hell.

You're going to hell if you drink.
You're going to hell if you smoke.
You're going to hell if you watch rated R movies.
You're going to hell if you have premarital sex.
You're going to hell if you don't come to my youth group.
You're going to hell if you don't believe exactly what I believe.
You're going to hell if you wear short shorts.
You're going to hell if you don't believe in fire.
You're going to hell if you don't raise your hands.
You're going to hell if...


I was going to explain myself since I am currently aware that people actually read this thing but I really don't give a hell for explanations right now. For they never introduced themselves to me. It is how it is.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

21 Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:

22 Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him.”

25 The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,
to the one who seeks him;

...

I am currently unmotivated.
I do not want to do anything.
Something is going on in my soul.
Perhaps, a war.


Something needs to happen.
Soon.

Thursday, May 12, 2011

OH

I
want
to
learn
how
to
screen
print
so
freakin'
bad.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

The boy named Jake Germ.

Once upon a time in a land far far away there lived a boy. This boy's name was Jake Germany. In this land, the grass was black and white. Bright colors never visited this town; even faded colors were rarely seen. This town was never lively. Everything was repetition. Jake hated this about the town. Jake always wanted an adventure but everyone was never interested in joining him.

Jake's parents were very fond of the marching band. The very day Jake was born, his parents' dream for him to play in the school's marching band grew instantly. Every time Jake's mom would make him food, she would think about him being in the marching band. Every time Jake's dad would come home for work and see Jake playing with toys he would picture him standing tall with pride and walking with dignity in the school's marching band.

It was Monday the 12th and the time finally arrived for Jake to start playing with the marching band. His dad took off of work and his mom marked this exact date on the calendar to drop Jake off to his first band practice. On the ride there, Jake's parents kept giggling and giggling while, Jake sat in the back of the mini van. He secretly removed his seatbelt and rolled his eyes at his parent's laughter.

Jake walked into the practice with a bit of attitude. All the band members just looked at him. He simply walked up to a saxophone, picked it up and played it like a motha. The band members were beside themselves and each person quickly became so jealous of Jake's talent. Because they had practice for forever and he never practiced ever. He was just as good as them, if not better. Since jealously is such a killer it killed a lot of things that day. It killed the band members' kindness and potential friendships with Jake. All of the band members excluded Jake from everything- conversations, parties, and inside jokes. He always thought, "Am I the only person in the marching band who isn't a dufus? Come on society."

There was one guy in the band named Jim. Jim was so mean to Jake. Jim weighed 543.9lbs and he played the cymbals. Jake always thought he was a joke because Jim thought he was the stuff and all he played was the cymbals. Jim would call him "Jake Germ" and all the band members would laugh. While they would laugh, Jake would look at Jim and one word popped into his mind, "Gumbo". He never said it aloud. For Jake was too big for middle school drama.

Jake began to hate everything about music because of marching band. It was sad and Jake became embarrassed about how he didn't enjoy music, but he kept trying to tell himself that he really did love the saxophone. However, with every march came more grief.
Every time Jake had a march his parents insisted on having supper on the porch outside. On Saturday the 4th, Jake's family was eating supper on the porch when Jake broke the news to his parents. He fully expressed how much he didn't like band. Even though the parents were slightly disappointed they knew that it would be best for Jake to stay in the band until he reached high school. Jake's parents were very kind folks. The only reason they wanted him to stay in band longer was because they didn't want Jake to be 43 years old and wishing he had some sort of hobby. Jake didn't understand this though he got angry and went run in the woods. After he came back from the run, his anger cooled down. He played in the marching band until he became a freshman. On his last march, he took his saxophone and smashed it on Jim. Jim cried. Jake laughed then hopped on his scooter and went home. He was beyond happy.

Once he got home, he told his mom he had so much energy that he had to go on an adventure. "Fine, Jake" was his mom's reply. Jake walked through the forest, then through the sand dunes, and then he saw a bright light. He never saw such a thing before. He ran so quick towards it. The light grew into different colors the closer he got to it.

Once Jake reached it he couldn't believe his eyes. He thought to himself, "This my friend, is the city life." The smell really got Jake. It was something he never smelt before. His sense of smell just left him because it was too much for it to handle. But, that didn't faze Jake. While he was walking into the city, he noticed his knees getting larger with muscle. Jake felt invisible.

He saw a kid who looked like Jim playing a guitar. This was the very first time Jake had ever seen a guitar. Jake walked up to this kid and grabbed his guitar.
The little kid said, "Hey, what are you doing?"
Jake said," It's the city lyfe, bruh."
And the little kid nodded, put his head down, and thought to himself, "I wish I had the city lyfe swag." The thing is most people wished this same too.
Jake played guitar, sang, and made friend with other city lyfe kids.
Jake and his friends ruled the city.
The end.