And they all left but me.

I was the one who wanted to leave more than anything.
They were the ones that left.


I miss each one of you so much. (Andrew, Madeline,the boy, Mallory M., Erin, Haleigh). Really.
Even when we reunite it will be wondeful, but it won't be the same.
I miss all the memories. And I keep revisiting them. I need to move on. I need to wish you guys luck. I need to live where I am. Now.
I want us to all be near, but that might not ever occur again.
One thing I think I'm learning is how to be grateful in that very moment.
Learning to be thankful in the present. For, the thing you are thankful for might never be there again. Or in the same way.

Here I go:
Andrew,
I hope that your heart gets full of love, patience, and kindness.
I hope you use your hands to serve.
I hope that you inspire and change people's life.
I hope you see Jesus in the least of these.
I hope your eyes will always be focused on God.
I hope you will meet many people from all different cultures.
I hope you allow yourself to learn from every person you meet.
I hope that you will not feel bitter or defeated when you think about the very memories that hurt you and created wounds.
I hope you become friends with people who don't look like they would make the "cool kids" catagory.
I hope you will always be full of life, no matter how the weather is.
I hope you eat a ton of chocolate and sleep for 23 hours straight( so I can laugh)
I wish you the best of luck dear friend.

Madeline,
I hope you will use every beautiful gift God has given you.
I hope that you will began to love yourself and other people the way God has loved you.
I hope that you meet a boy who can't stop thinking of you.
I hope you one day realize how wonderful you are.
I hope you never stop impersonating people.
I hope many opportunities come to you.
I hope you find new friends. And a community to become a part of.
I hope you are always amazed with how creative God works.
I hope you become close to everyone in your family.
I hope forgivness swallows you whole.
I hope you enjoy life.
I hope you take risks, even if you might regret them.
I hope that you will never stop believing.
I wish you the best of luck dear friend.

The boy,
I hope that you truly began to enjoy where you are and be fully present.
I hope you meet everyone you can. Young and old.
I hope that faith becomes so vital to you that you use it up more than oxygen.
I hope that you find yourself in a place where you cannot stop writing.
I hope that you meet people that you feel so connected to.
I hope that you really get to know God.
I hope you become a friend to the lonely.
I hope that you and your father become friends.
I hope that you do not find yourself living with regrets.
I hope that you never feel lonely again.
I hope you always search for God's will before yours.
I hope you find a church where you will learn how to love and serve like Jesus.
I hope you help people in need.
I hope that God reveals part of himself to you in unconventional ways.
I hope bitterness is replaced with grace.
I hope that you play music&sing till you're on your death bed.
I hope that you will find yourself grateful in any circumstances.
I hope that you and creativity become the best of friends.
I wish you the best of luck dear friend.



The others I will write about later.
Maybe.
Probably not.

Picz willz bez comingz shortlyz

It's
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A few words to describe my life lately:
Lonely. Different. Lame. Dull. Depressing. Selfish. Jealously. Missing others. Past-life livin'

These few months have been utterly lame. Iloveitwhenthathappensyayyyyyyyyyy


Really though.


There's a group of people.
They all are gorgeous.
They all made about a 27 on their ACT.
They all know what they want to do.
They all are friends.
They all have unique personalities.
They all are creative.
They all live in Nola.
They all have no flaws.

I tend to make up things in my mind. Lately, I've been obsessing with people's relationships with other people. That sounds creepy.
Explaining...Now. I have found that I have been constantly thinking of other people and their friendhips. It keeps playing in my mind. How they are such good friends. How they have such great memories together. How they are almost family. How they truly know one another.
And that is what I want. Friends will come and go. But, lately all they have been doing is going.
Today, I found out that's what I've been craving. Community. Love. Friends.
And I'm so jealous and curious when I see others have it.
I've never wanted friends so badly before. I never understood how awesome they are and how important they are.
Let, me clarify. I don't want just anyone. Yes, I sound stuck up ,but I don't mean it so. I want close friends where we have some common interest. I'm totally cool with having a limitless amount of aquaintances, but it's close friends that I want so badly.

Dear God,
Please send me a group of people-- a community. One that I can love and they can love me. One that I can create with. One that I can serve with. One that I can speak about you with. One that I can learn from. One that I can encourage and be encouraged. One that we can inspire one another. One that I can enjoy your beautiful creation with. And one that I can travel with. I want a home feel in my body.
Sincerly,
Joi.

You may have forgotton.

Blog spot
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How I miss thee!

Yay, I'm pumped about bloggin' again. Werd to your mother.


Warning:I have a feeling the blogs of the future won't warm your heart. So, everyone who doesn't read them...Cool
And the spell check does not work on this comp. Oh awesome.