A few words to describe my life lately:
Lonely. Different. Lame. Dull. Depressing. Selfish. Jealously. Missing others. Past-life livin'

These few months have been utterly lame. Iloveitwhenthathappensyayyyyyyyyyy


Really though.


There's a group of people.
They all are gorgeous.
They all made about a 27 on their ACT.
They all know what they want to do.
They all are friends.
They all have unique personalities.
They all are creative.
They all live in Nola.
They all have no flaws.

I tend to make up things in my mind. Lately, I've been obsessing with people's relationships with other people. That sounds creepy.
Explaining...Now. I have found that I have been constantly thinking of other people and their friendhips. It keeps playing in my mind. How they are such good friends. How they have such great memories together. How they are almost family. How they truly know one another.
And that is what I want. Friends will come and go. But, lately all they have been doing is going.
Today, I found out that's what I've been craving. Community. Love. Friends.
And I'm so jealous and curious when I see others have it.
I've never wanted friends so badly before. I never understood how awesome they are and how important they are.
Let, me clarify. I don't want just anyone. Yes, I sound stuck up ,but I don't mean it so. I want close friends where we have some common interest. I'm totally cool with having a limitless amount of aquaintances, but it's close friends that I want so badly.

Dear God,
Please send me a group of people-- a community. One that I can love and they can love me. One that I can create with. One that I can serve with. One that I can speak about you with. One that I can learn from. One that I can encourage and be encouraged. One that we can inspire one another. One that I can enjoy your beautiful creation with. And one that I can travel with. I want a home feel in my body.
Sincerly,
Joi.